#25

This blog may sound childish, but I'm not one, I just suck at writing things definitively. When people don't know the age or gender of the person that they're talking to (or in this case reading), they develop a bias quickly. It's hard for me to take advice from someone younger or too much older from me. It's stereotypical but the cliche of the teenager feeling that their parents "don't understand him/her" actually applies to the whole world. In today's day and age the situations that Teenagers are put in are unlike that of any other generation. Kids born in this century have never lived in a world without the wealth of technology at their fingertips. They have never had to go to a public library for a research project and reading "The Scarlet Letter" or "A Tale of Two Cities" was made useless by The Internet. Today going to college is literally all High School Students worry about, and that is everything. They feel the weight of their future pressing on their shoulders and it's impossible not to be crushed. The expectations are insanely high.

I'm wrote that last paragraph with the Idea that this blog would be read by anyone other than me, but I know that isn't the case, so there's no point in pretending to be anything other than a 17 year old male teenager.
I don't know what I want to do with my life or even who I am, but as a junior I'm pressured to figure out my whole life this year. I find that the bulk of my decision rests in whether I follow my passion for learning as a career or my desire to give my future children the life I wanted growing up. I don't want them to have to worry about money or the ability to get to the places they need. I want to be able to give them each a car when they turn 16 or at least a third car they can share, but I don't know if I can give them that lifestyle if I follow my heart. So what'll it be?

That is if I even get into a college of any worth. The pressure of a good GPA causes me a great deal of worry and I wonder if I can ever be good enough. I'm not in the top of my class, solely for the lack of my trying. I didn't put in any effort last year which shot my grades to crap. I only have a 3.6 unweighted GPA and it won't be good enough. That's what I'm told by everyone, my teachers, my parents, even my peers. I'm told I won't be able to accomplish anything with my life. But I don't know what it is that I want to do yet. It is a very weird place to be in life, to be unsure about accomplishing a future that you don't even know exists.

#7

Now at this point, starting a blog makes no sense to do. Nobody gets their word out over "Blogger" and, in fact, when I looked it up I still thought it was "Blogspot.com." This blog isn't really for any of you, whoever you are, it's just for me to say what I need to in a place I can. In all likelihood I won't even remember I wrote this in a week and it'll just be floating out on the internet forever. So this blog is going to reveal my observations of the world to the world in a roundabout sort of way. If there is anyone who ever actually reads this, I'm naming my posts by random numbers, ergo #7. I think I used "ergo" correctly.