I quit my school band for a lot of reasons. I'll miss parts of it and not others. I don't know if I'm making a mistake. But probably not. I was really worried about my decision, but not anymore. I'll still play sax and be better than the rest of them. I'll practice oboe and play it better than they do. It'll work out (he said to reassure himself of his decisions). The thing is, playing the blues gets me out of my depression, so I'm going to be playing a lot more sax this summer. I realize now that this "anonymous" blog would be super identifiable by literally anyone who knows me at all, so if this ever gets big I'm screwed (but it won't).
I need to start making money. I'll find a way. I'm thinking about taking summer school for people. Or at least just writing summer assignments for English for them. I don't know how to advertise that though. How do I do it large scale without getting caught? How do I collect the money efficiently? I'll figure it out.
After a very long phone call with a good friend of mine, I have figured it out. Let's see if I can do this.
Tuesday, June 21, 2016
Sunday, June 19, 2016
#84
I apparently only post when I get depressed. Which I am now. Which totally sucks. I meant to post more often but that's not happening. And is a real person reading this blog? Because if you are reading this please let me know. It'd be cool to know that I'm writing to someone. But if not then oh well.
So I thought this girl liked me and I convinced myself to like her back but apparently she doesn't which totally sucks. I psyched myself up and now I really like her and I wanted to date her. I'm super bummed about that. Who even says that? Whatever.
I came up with the plot of a book (which I stole a little from Tumblr but that's not important) but I can't write it. I can't write with enough complexity to achieve my goals. That also depressed me I guess.
Then I tried to write lyrics, I can't do lyrics. I can't write with a meter to fit a song. It's the worst. It's going downhill right now, but school is almost out so that's nice. I'm trying to see an upside. Life By Me is a staircase that looks like I'm going to reach my goals,but there is a step missing right before the top and I crash down every time. Maybe one day I'll be able to jump that gap.
-It's been me
So I thought this girl liked me and I convinced myself to like her back but apparently she doesn't which totally sucks. I psyched myself up and now I really like her and I wanted to date her. I'm super bummed about that. Who even says that? Whatever.
I came up with the plot of a book (which I stole a little from Tumblr but that's not important) but I can't write it. I can't write with enough complexity to achieve my goals. That also depressed me I guess.
Then I tried to write lyrics, I can't do lyrics. I can't write with a meter to fit a song. It's the worst. It's going downhill right now, but school is almost out so that's nice. I'm trying to see an upside. Life By Me is a staircase that looks like I'm going to reach my goals,but there is a step missing right before the top and I crash down every time. Maybe one day I'll be able to jump that gap.
-It's been me
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